Eyes Wide Shut

Good Morning,
So blessed that fall is finally here, I was wondering when the cool peaceful mornings were going to show up. As I sat outside and listened to the birds singing and the doves cooing I couldn't help but feel that my Papa is stilling my heart. Just when you think you have opened a new door into the heart of the Father and you are high on that euphoric feeling, He opens yet a new revelation into your own heart. Yesterday I went to my knees in worship, which I hadn't done in over 2 months. I believe the healing will begin with me now. I don't know if I am home, I just know that I am loved by the maker of the universe. As I sit here and write, I wonder as to what Papa has in store for me next, I believe a time of peach and quiet is coming. He has shown me so much grace lately that I can feel my heart ache when I don't give it back. How can I hold onto a gift that was given so freely, one that He knew I would need so that I could spend eternity with Him. I saw heaven yesterday, I felt His touch and was reminded that with gentleness, love, and grace I am to live my life, NO MATTER WHAT!! Look around, where is your lack of grace? Is it to those who are closest to you? Is it the car in front of you that is going too slow/driving crazy? The girl behind the checkout counter who seems oblivious to you or anyone? Your husband, your children who don't see how hard you work? Is it the elderly women checking out in front of you all alone in this world? I look around and see so many opportunities to extend what was given to me freely. The one thing the world hungers for , longs for, yearns so much for, and every time I refuse to extend grace, I refuse to receive it from my Father. Lord help me, help me to receive your grace, I am ungrateful, because I refuse to forgive, help in in my unforgiving heart. Find peace in this day my friends!

Struggling With The Same Sin,
Diane Maldonado